29 June 2017

Bright Hair Dye DIY

This past weekend I was able to escape
again to San Francisco to visit Alyx!
And I tell ya what,
it was so needed for both of us.
It was a break from the heat for me,
and my kids and real life because it's been a little harsh to us lately!
Plus I was able to watch their kidlets 
(and teach them a new game - broom ball hahaha)
while Alyx and Mike went on a long
overdue and much deserved date night away!
It was so much fun!
I helped her "model"
(I use that word EXTREMELY loosely)
some stuff for her boudoir business,
which was fun!
Plus we did something a little bold and crazy:
 Hahahaha IT'S TEAL!!
(sorry it's a weird face, we had finished the session and my face was tired haha)
Just the way I had pictured!
And we did it ourselves,
for - get this - UNDER $50! 
I had a TON of people ask me on Instagram HOW
so I decided to write it out here and then y'all can do it yourself too!
And basically learn from our snaffoos!
She thought about going pink for a hot second
(see?? the color is in her hand and not even permanent!)
 then chickened out,
but I also love how this picture turned out so hahaha
We got all of this from Sally's Beauty Supply
and that's where the links provided will take you!
(this is not a sponsored post, 
I just wanted to share with you
how easy and fun this was!)
Ok here's the breakdown:
I used Tough As Teal and Emerald Queen (1) dyes together
(next time I'll be doing mostly Teal with like a touch of the green)
3 packages of the bleach (2) to get my hair to a 7 on the scale of blonde.
(If I had wanted a lighter color,
like pink I would have needed more/different bleach and toner)
Luckily only needed 1 of number 5 (it's HUGE) because you need 3 oz of developer 
per package of bleach.
Number 4 we only got one because we were using half of each colored dye.
So the normal ratio is one of them per thing of colored dye.
You CAN do the hair without the clips but honestly WHY would you?!
These helped us out sooo much!
I have a crap ton of hair
(both length and thickness)
so they were a lifesaver.
I won't lie though,
we didn't actually buy a brush!
We thought it wouldn't really matter cuz 
we were doing my whole head anyways
but Alyx discovered the brush probably would have 
helped saturate/spread a bit better than her poor hands!
Also, buy at least 2 pairs of gloves!
We only bought one hahaha
.....awk sauce face y'all......

BTW the teal that was already IN my hair turned it a bit green hahaha
BUT it was fine cuz we were already going for that!
(and wet.....hahaha)
The hair masque was definitely necessary after putting my hair throguh all of that!
Honestly though, I didn't use it til Tuesday night
BECAUSE I lost it on Saturday when we did the coloring
(it had fallen under the bed haha kids were playing in there mmmmk?)
and then we fixed the roots,
photoshoot, ate, airport, home.
And a million things happened on Monday and Tuesday 
so Tuesday night I used it whe I showered and my hair feels AMAZING!
And smells sooooo good!
Now I know I could have gone to a salon to get this done
but honestly?
I couldn't afford the $130+ bill
(and no, that's not including tip).
I completely understand WHY they charge so much,
this stuff takes time and patience
and I value their skills,
I just had some play money I had saved up for my trip
so we went for it!
So we apparently hadn't washed out all the bleach like we thought
 SO in the morning we mixed a bit more of the dye with the leftover developer
and the roots took soooo well!
I've basically decided I will never have boring hair again hahaha
Guys, I'm pretty sure I'm having a life crisis.
I'm about to enter my last year of my 20s
and I'm for some reason wrestling with that!
Or maybe just the stigma of 30?
I dunno! 
All I know is I want to always be spunky,
funky, fun and do what I love!
And right now, it's my gorgeous teal mermaid hair!
What bold things have you done lately??

20 June 2017

More Birthdays!

One thing that's always hard this month
is that Andrew and Rory have birthdays 4 days apart so it's insane!

For Rory's birthday we went out to eat with my parents
at her favorite place, Red Robin
the Saturday before her actual birthday!
Such a simple thing!
We of course had to stop at the Disney Store afterwards though,
cuz what birthday is complete without a Disney visit?!

She was ecstatic to spend the quality time with us
and my parents.
We had a blast and she ended up with some new
pajamas (Star Wars for the win!)
and a couple shirts too!

In case you wondered where these girls get their crazy from hahaha
(Also, Rory took all of these)

Then yesterday,
this girl got to spend some serious quality time with her grandparents' Mills!
They took her to lunch and out to buy clothes for school!
She came home with EVERYTHING she needed for school!
And she's obsessed with all of her new things! 
We had to wash them last night so she could wear some today
and she's dying for school to start ;)

We then had friends over for dinner and cake
and she PASSED OUT within seconds.

I can't believe she's 5!
I feel like it's gone fast,
and yet it has also been only 5 years?!
She's so full of spunk, sass, love, curiosity, smarts, etc.
I can't ewait to see what school does for her cuz I know she's going to 
blossom and grow soooo much!

I love you Aurora Rose!
Thank you for making me a mom!

16 June 2017

Birthday Shennanigans!

Andrew turned 28 yesterday,
and sweet man that he is,
he wanted to go to Costco for his birthday dinner
so we could also get groceries hahaha
 Such a great guy!
We met up with him there,
did our tiny shopping trip
(like under $100 people, I was so proud!),
had a sample of some kind of fish patty I think it was,
and settled down to eat!
It was incredibly simple,
yet perfect for our little family of 4!
 This is his "then stay in the cart so I can give you some!" face

This may seem like a super silly thing to document
but I felt like we should document the boring mundane
stuff as well as the fun good stuff ;)
This was a mixture of both
plus hello!
Costco pizza and hot dogs (for the others, not me)
are DA BOMB!

Happy Birthday to our favorite guy on the entire planet and in the universe!!
(and it's this crazy girl's birthday on Monday! WHAT!?)

08 June 2017

Stigmas with Ebbs and Flows!

My mind is a weird place sometimes.
It's like a black hole that just sucks me in
and it's hard to climb back out.
This is part of my anxiety and depression battle
that seems to be constantly there.
Some days it's worse than others because it's like the ocean:
it ebbs and flows.
I think that's part of why I love the ocean so much.
I don't like going into the water,
but the sound of the waves and watching the water calms me down.
Probably because it's a physical demonstration 
of what seems to be going on inside my head:
As the waves crash on the sand it represents me feeling overwhelmed
and not being able to breathe.
But as it recedes I see that I'm still there,
maybe a little torn up from it,
but able to go on.
I recently saw a very good and slightly eye opening video showing 
"If we talked about physical health the way we do about mental health"
(scroll down a bit and the video is there)
and it struck a chord in me.
It's sadly true.
I know it is because I used to think the same way.
I used to think it should be easy to just "shrug it off".
I used to think a lot of things that I know now were very naive
and very judgmental (even though they were never meant that way)
Why is there such a stigma about depression and other mental health issues?
Is it because it's not a physical ailment?
(though it sometimes can manifest that way)
Is it because no one really fully understands why
it happens?
Is it because it's so hard to diagnose properly?
Is it because we're scared we may "catch it" like some
infectious disease?
I don't know the answers to these questions.
All I know is that there shouldn't be one!
Depression isn't always triggered by a loss.
Sometimes it is but not always.
Depression takes many forms:
anger, sadness, indifference, hopelessness,
and in extreme cases self harm, suicide, etc.
Sometimes it's not even there and you get a glimpse of what 
"normal" can look and feel like.
Anxiety isn't just "feeling scared".
It's when you can't turn your mind off
from worrying about anything.
Big, small, insignificant, important, child related,
spouse related, earth related, really anything on the spectrum.
And most of the time it's subconscious
but still your mind will not let you rest.
It can be a stomach ache that hits you out of the blue.
It could even be a panic attack
that is very real and you cannot breathe.
Insomnia is your best friend.
I often beg it to leave for just one night so I can get some rest
only to be wakened by children throughout the night.
(Motherhood has no "closed" hours)
The saddest part of it all is when you don't even know the person is
suffering inside because we've been programmed to say 
"I'm fine"
whenever someone asks how were doing.
We do it with a smile and hope someone 
sees the broken glass insde so we don't have to admit it out loud.
Sometimes we answer honestly and can talk about it.
Most of the time however, we won't.
Not because we don't trust you,
or because we don't think you'll "get it".
But because even we don't get it sometimes.
We don't know why we feel this way.
We don't know how to "fix it". 
And we've been told 
"it's all in your head"
"Are you even trying to be happy?"
"Your life is wonderful, why on earth are you sad?!"
or a plethera of other things.
So we decide to keep it inside and answer
"I'm fine."
even though we may be drowning inside,
amidst a crashing wave.
And then when our ocean is receding,
and we can breathe air again,
life really is good and we know it.
We just have a few more waves to ride through than some people
and it's ok.
So let's end this horrid stigma that mental health is laughable,
silly, not real, not important.
And give it the time it deserves to help us not feel so alone,
abandoned, made fun of, or feel less than human.
Hold us through the crashing of our waves
and help us ride them out.