08 January 2014


Lately I've been feeling weird.
I'm not sure how to describe it so I'm just gonna write the words down 
that kinda make sense to me.

I feel excited, happy, sad, nervous, like a failure, like a major rockstar,
like I could take on the world,
and also like I want to just shut it out.

It's a weird place for me to be in.
In the mom department I'm currently struggling.

Rory has started asking for the potty,
although I'm fairly certain it's just to see Mickey on the shower curtain.
But that's led me to think about potty training.
I don't think she's ready yet,
but she's dang close!
That terrifies me.
I've never potty trained a kid before,
so the whole process makes me sick with anxiety hahaha
sad isn't it?
But she also won't eat very much.
She eats a waffle for breakfast because I make her,
and let her walk around with it cuz it's not messy.
She drinks TONS of apple juice,
I mean if this girl could have one thing ever it'd be apple juice.
She will snack on some things,
and she'll take bits of whatever Andrew and I eat,
but I can't get her to eat a meal or be consistent with it.
Maybe I'm worrying over nothing,
but when we're out she eats everything in sight like I'm starving her,
which I promise you I'm not!!

She doesn't have any little friends yet.
She's been in nursery for just a few weeks,
but one of us has had to be in there the whole time
because they bring her to us if she cries,
and my daughter being a weirdly tender heart she is,
is a sympathetic crier.
So when someone else starts crying, she has to too.
(BTW, anyone know how to "break" this habit?
Cuz it's driving me crazy)
 Our ward doesn't do a WARD playgroup that I know of.
I'm sure there probably is one,
I just don't know where it is or how to find out
cuz I haven't been to RS hahaha

BUT she's been an AMAZING helper these past few weeks.
I got hit with the sickness that's been going around,
and this little girl has brought me tissues,
walked me to the bathroom (adorable by the way),
helped me unload the dishwasher (she's the utensil expert),
helps me clean up when there's a mess.
I mean, she's a REALLY good girl ;)
I got extremely lucky with her ;)
I feel so blessed to have her.

I've also been feeling like we just need to do more
spiritual things both as a couple and family.
It's really hard to do with a toddler that doesn't really understand things,
and we haven't been very consistent,
but we'll get better at it.
Andrew and I have started reading scriptures again before bed.
Guys this is a big deal.
It's been really hard for us to get back into the habit after Rory was born.
We had so many other things going on,
that it just kinda got pushed to the side without even realizing it.
So this new year we're starting again.
And already it feels better in my soul.
Cheesy as that may be, it's true.

Sometimes I wish I had the talent to have a side business
that's profitable and helps make ends meet.
but apparently it's just not a very popular thing.
I've done a grand total of 2 jobs.
One was doing all of my SIL's parents pictures
(1600 pictures) and then doing a photo DVD for a girl for her husband for Christmas.
That's it.
And while that was amazing and I'm grateful for it,
I'm at a loss at how to promote it anymore.
Thus feeling slightly discouraged,
but I'll keep trying for awhile.

Sorry for the jumbled post hahaha
I've just had a lot on my mind and needed to get it off my chest.


  1. We can have play dates! Noah has lots of friends cuz I have a couple friends with kids around his age. You can join our group :) Its hard being a mommy and doing things for the first time. I was terrified of potty training but I'm in the middle of it now and it has its ups and down.

  2. Ok I am going to tell you a couple things I have learned from being a mom. First thing is that kids are horrible eaters. They go through so many phases where they don't want to eat anything. My son is a picky eater and I have just figured out what he will eat and that is what he eats. So he gets either cereal or pancakes or waffles for breakfast. Usually a snack in between like Cheetos puffs or popcorn. Then for lunch sometimes he will eat Ramon noodles. (i usually get the cup of noodle and make those) Other times he eats a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Sometimes he doesn't eat at all and he only eats snacks for lunch. Then at dinner time he rarely will eat anything. I have found out that he likes rice so a couple days a week I will make the Broccoli and Cheese rice from Rice A Roni and he will eat that. Other times I will let him eat cereal for dinner because I don't want him to go to bed hungry. So honestly kids go through so many phases that you just have to realize that if they are hungry they will eat. I promise I have seen that so many times with my son. He also loves corn! (sorry just remembered) As far as the friend thing and nursery. My son had a couple months where he would cry when we left him there but he would stop once they distracted him. My only advice with that is that you need to leave her with other kids by herself. Something that has helped Caleb is that I have scheduled play dates with other kids in our ward so he is used to me leaving him. He is getting time away from me because that is really important. I know you live really far out there now but if you ever want to drop off Rory at our house that is totally fine. But she needs to have time alone from you because that is going to help the whole process of nursery be easier. If you have any questions don't be afraid to ask because trust me kids are a difficult thing to figure out and every mom goes through things. Another thing I realized is that I didn't have to be home every day all day long. I could go to the zoo or to the mall to play on the play ground there. If there is a park close walk to the park. Getting Rory around other little kids more will help her get used to nursery and being away from Andrew and you. I hope this help and like I said let me know if you have any questions.


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