Lately I've been feeling weird.
I'm not sure how to describe it so I'm just gonna write the words down
that kinda make sense to me.
I feel excited, happy, sad, nervous, like a failure, like a major rockstar,
like I could take on the world,
and also like I want to just shut it out.
It's a weird place for me to be in.
In the mom department I'm currently struggling.
Rory has started asking for the potty,
although I'm fairly certain it's just to see Mickey on the shower curtain.
But that's led me to think about potty training.
I don't think she's ready yet,
but she's dang close!
That terrifies me.
I've never potty trained a kid before,
so the whole process makes me sick with anxiety hahaha
sad isn't it?
But she also won't eat very much.
She eats a waffle for breakfast because I make her,
and let her walk around with it cuz it's not messy.
She drinks TONS of apple juice,
I mean if this girl could have one thing ever it'd be apple juice.
She will snack on some things,
and she'll take bits of whatever Andrew and I eat,
but I can't get her to eat a meal or be consistent with it.
Maybe I'm worrying over nothing,
but when we're out she eats everything in sight like I'm starving her,
which I promise you I'm not!!
She doesn't have any little friends yet.
She's been in nursery for just a few weeks,
but one of us has had to be in there the whole time
because they bring her to us if she cries,
and my daughter being a weirdly tender heart she is,
is a sympathetic crier.
So when someone else starts crying, she has to too.
(BTW, anyone know how to "break" this habit?
Cuz it's driving me crazy)
Our ward doesn't do a WARD playgroup that I know of.
I'm sure there probably is one,
I just don't know where it is or how to find out
cuz I haven't been to RS hahaha
BUT she's been an AMAZING helper these past few weeks.
I got hit with the sickness that's been going around,
and this little girl has brought me tissues,
walked me to the bathroom (adorable by the way),
helped me unload the dishwasher (she's the utensil expert),
helps me clean up when there's a mess.
I mean, she's a REALLY good girl ;)
I got extremely lucky with her ;)
I feel so blessed to have her.
I've also been feeling like we just need to do more
spiritual things both as a couple and family.
It's really hard to do with a toddler that doesn't really understand things,
and we haven't been very consistent,
but we'll get better at it.
Andrew and I have started reading scriptures again before bed.
Guys this is a big deal.
It's been really hard for us to get back into the habit after Rory was born.
We had so many other things going on,
that it just kinda got pushed to the side without even realizing it.
So this new year we're starting again.
And already it feels better in my soul.
Cheesy as that may be, it's true.
Sometimes I wish I had the talent to have a side business
that's profitable and helps make ends meet.
I LOVE doing the digitizing and photo restoration
but apparently it's just not a very popular thing.
I've done a grand total of 2 jobs.
One was doing all of my SIL's parents pictures
(1600 pictures) and then doing a photo DVD for a girl for her husband for Christmas.
And while that was amazing and I'm grateful for it,
I'm at a loss at how to promote it anymore.
Thus feeling slightly discouraged,
but I'll keep trying for awhile.
Sorry for the jumbled post hahaha
I've just had a lot on my mind and needed to get it off my chest.