I've been reading of blogs about life post pregnancy
(aka with baby) and how hard it is and how
we moms keep comparing ourselves to each other.
Now I will admit that it's true.
I've compared myself to moms that are breastfeeding, have 2 cars,
and have gym memberships with daycare and made myself feel awful
for not being more fit, lithe, and "fitting into my skinny high school jeans".
You know, those ones that have it all together.
And seriously, I think it's awesome that they do!
I'm just not.
I wasn't able to breastfeed.
(I'm debating trying something new to try
and get the milk in for the second kid -
but ultimately it's MY decision)
And I'm not making it up, the women in my family weren't able to breastfeed,
and I tried but decided that my feeding baby was more important
than me being the provider of the food.
That what MY decision, I highly respect all the mothers that nurse!
I've never been good at losing weight.
Quite frankly, I love chocolate and exercising when I have to,
makes me hate it therefore I don't (very often) hahaha.
We only have one car so a going to a gym
(not to mention paying for one)
is just not in the cards for us.
BUT I'm also not a slovenly person just sitting here on a couch
eating ice cream all day,
or chips or junk food all day all the time.
I've been eating better, I play with Rory all the time which now that she's walking,
includes some throwing into the air and such ;)
I've come to terms with my body as it is,
and how it works.
I've never been a tiny girl,
always been more on the stocky side
and it's ok.
Now does this mean that I don't want to keep myself healthy?
But I refuse to drive myself crazy comparing myself to the others
that had babies around the same time I did
and went back to their pre-pregnancy selves when their bodies
and mine work differently ;)
I hear breastfeeding is a huge weight loss help,
so to the moms that can YOU ROCK!
And for those of us that can't for whatever reason,
we're not broken, bad mothers, etc.
We're just different and it's ok.
As for me, I've just decided that for now,
I'm gonna get a few new things to wear to make me feel
more like me
and later when the weight seems to be dropping,
then I can go back to what I already have.
But I honestly have mostly gotten over the
"you're one of the fat moms"
because I'm still Rory's mom and she loves me for who I am,
not how I look ;)
DO forgive me if I sound a little off,
I'm working off some negative energy here hahaha
P.S. If you can, go show my friend Alexis some love?
She's having a rough day today :(