Guys, I need to get real for a minute.
Being a mom is hard work.
Like really hard.
Now I'm not saying that being a mom isn't wonderful, exciting, fulfilling,
and all other good adjectives.
Cuz it is.
But when Rory has a rough day of no naps,
screaming for no reason,
hitting/scratching me out of frustration,
it is sooo hard.
I try to be patient, I mean she IS a baby and I know that,
but sometimes I have to walk away from her and go into another room
for 5 minutes to get my cool back.
Then I can usually go back and calm her down since I am finally calm again.
It's really hard after 3-4 days of this routine AND basically no sleep
since she would wake up at least once or twice.
It is the hardest thing to deal with for me.
I don't do well with little sleep
and non-restful days beforehand.
I never thought that motherhood was going to be
easy-peasy lemon sqeezy,
but I honestly didn't think that there would be days where it was SO hard
to keep my cool and not get frustrated
at our messy apartment that I can never seem to keep clean,
a baby I can never seem to soothe,
dinners that never get made,
laundry that never gets folded, etc.
There are many times I feel like a failure,
as a wife and mother.
There are days I struggle so much with these feelings,
that it feels like I can't ever get over it.
It's so hard sometimes but then there are days
when naps are taken,
a dinner is made by surprise,
my baby falls asleep holding my finger in her little hand,
or she cups my face in both of her hands,
dishes magically end up in cupboards,
and everything is alright.